What scares me the most

Hi there!

This is the first blog post for DAY1 (November 16 2015) of my “Live off Your Passion Course” that I’m following.

What scares me the most in living off my passion is making the step to switch from one type of lifestyle to another. I feel like I’m going to be jumping off one tree branch to get to another tree branch. What if the new branch is not strong enough to hold me, my three kids, husband, dog, house, etc. I just don’t want to end up losing it all. For me, its very risky business. I truly hope that this course is going to help me build a strong bridge to the next tree and so I won’t have to do any daredevil jumping! I sure am ready to build that bridge though!!

I’m ready to build the bridge, yes, but I don’t want it to take me years either, to get there! The longest I feel I could wait is 1-2 years. I’m actually not getting any younger (I’m 41 now), and as I already mentionned, I feel an urgency in using my energy, time and money wisely and effectively towards helping other people.

Of course I want to do this course as completely as possible without shutting off any options.

Yes it cost me money, but I hope it’ll be worth the investment 100 times. I’ve always believed that it’s important to look around for models and experts. It saves me time, energy and money (my three most important resources while on this planet). (I’m thinking of also translating this into French for more people to benefit.) It has nothing to do with being a copy-cat. The experts and models I choose resonate with something deep within me. I choose them very carefully and intuitively. There is something in their communication that transpires and is accordance with my own personal views and values.

Without bragging, I’m pretty good at a bunch of things, especially when (or maybe ONLY when) I set my mind too it. However, that has made it all the more difficult to determine what is it that exactly fits me, and what I want to do. I now realize that I don’t have enough time, energy and money, to try out all the alternatives either. I hope this course will help me NAIL my activity (as Simon, in X-factor, likes to put it…), to bring it all in focus.

So, should I change my job? I don’t know, we’ll see with this course and how it unfolds. I do want a different life, though, with time to take great care of my family, do the things I really love and bring value to the world. In my current job I’m doing quite well and I could go on like this for years BUT somehow I feel that I’m not really using my full potential or that I could be doing something EVEN MORE interesting or that I’m even more PASSIONATE about. What I love in my current job is the contact with the people who have projects and helping them bring their projects to fruition (at least for the administrative paper work and some counselling on the project). I love meeting them since each has a different, interesting story to tell and each is unique and incredible.

I took an online test today called the “F-score how to fascinate” by Sally Hogshead. It was super interesting. For a few weeks now I’ve decided to focus on my strengths. I stumbled across Strengths 2.0 a few weeks ago and ordered the book yesterday. Today I actually looked at Sally Hogshead’s TEDx talk on youtube she gave on how to fascinate, and then decided to take the test. The outcome didn’t surprise me at all : CATALYST (combination of the advantages of “passion” and “innovation”) with the following top five adjectives : out-of-the-box, social, energizing, enthusiastic and creative. Also, the advantage I scored the least highly on was “power”, not surprising, as I don’t have a dominant personality, dislike controlling others and do not strive to occupy the alpha dog position in the group. Oh, I’ll do it if I really have to and if nobody else is around to do it, but it really drains my energy.

So, there we have it all to a roaring start! Its going to be so interesting to delve into this new course, I just can’t wait!!!

2 thoughts on “What scares me the most

  • February 17, 2016 at 9:16 pm
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    Hi there!
    My name is Emmanuelle.
    I really love reading your posts and I think we´ve quite a lot of things or thoughts in common! I’m waiting for your next blog post.

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    • February 18, 2016 at 7:27 pm
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      Hi Emmanuelle!
      That’s so kind of you! Thank you so much for dropping by! I hope to put out more interesting blogs soon!

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